Thursday, May 16, 2013

change or be changed.

What does it take for a person to change?

In the last year, we have moved twice, Dan has switched jobs twice, went through a couple months of being unemployed, I went back to work, it has been brought to our attention that Kai has some developmental delays, we have therapists in our home three days a week, and our life seems as crazy busy as it always has.

At the core I am the same woman,  same mother, same wife, same daughter.

What does it take for a person to become better?

How many times must you make the same mistakes, to realize it is in fact you, who must do the changing and growing. And maybe what they are saying is true, it is in fact YOU.

How many different jobs, homes, vehicles, new relationships, and then relationships lost, arguments, triumphs, and failures must a person have before they change?

In my life I always try to make changes to positively progress my life.  If I don't like being a stay at home mom, I go get a job.  We want to buy a new house, we pick up more shifts, and save the money.  I make choices because I want to change for the better.

Why do some people never make any choices to better themselves.  Instead they do the same thing over and over and over again, and get worse and worse, and bring people down with them, and hurt everyone in the process. 

I guess all that can be controlled is for me to make yet another growth change, and become better when others cant.  And I'll know that I will always have my little boy and big boy to hold my hand through the process.